Life has been a bit dull lately.
Now that gym class has become a routine of sorts, the intial excitment that I had towards it has slowly died down and just become a norm to me, a good norm because it has given me a consistent social life.
8th August
Life has been a bit dull lately.
Now that gym class has become a routine of sorts, the intial excitment that I had towards it has slowly died down and just become a norm to me, a good norm because it has given me a consistent social life.
8th August
Just went for a job interview earlier this morning, had to miss out on my Fitstop class for it, and it was not good.
The co-founder of this company is someone I had matched with on Hinge about a year back, we did chat a little then, found out that we were both IDs, but the conversation didn't sustain long enough to warrant a meet up, so for us to actually meet up in the capacity of a potential candidate and pontential boss almost a year later felt really really weird, and it was really uncomfortable during the actual interivew because none of us really acknowledged the fact that we knew one another through the dating app (or maybe he might have geuinely forgotten who I was, who knows)
I didn't enjoy the dynamics of the interview, it was extremely uncomfortable, I think I had a bit of an inferioirty complex as well because this guy is almost my age, is running his own ID firm, and here I was, applying to join his company as an employee.
The interview itself didn't go well, there were a lot of questions being asked about my past job experience, a lot of scrunitinzing and I think a lot of my responses weren't what he had wanted to hear, so he kept probing and probing to the point where I was actually getting quite uncomfortable because it made me wonder if he was asking me because he genuinely expected a better answer, or if he doing that because he is just being a bitch (my inferiority complex kicking in), looking back, I think it might be a bit of both.
I came into the interview expecting it to be awkward, but what I did not expect was to feel like shit about myself afterwards. The sad thing about this job is that if the boss had been someone else who was much older with much more experience, I would have been really excited to go further, but alas, I really didn't like the guy after how the interview went.
He did propose to "test" me by giving me a task to do, to prepare a space planning proposal with 3D included and send it over to him because he wants to see how I design and plan spaces, which in all honesty is fair, this is something I had done for another company before.
The other company gave me 1 week, this guy is only going to give me 1 day, and that was after he had commented and told me how he knows I don't have a lot of time because I am working working a full time job.
Huh?!
That's like a barista telling the customer that they are aware they are lactose intolerant, and then proceeds to prepare for them a latte made with full fat milk.
Anyways, I left the office feeling not so great about myself and my current career trajectory, met up with a friend for a meal after and throughout the meet up, the interview would just keep replying in my head for the rest of the day, which really affected my mood a little, so I did eventually email the ID firm this evening and told them I was going to withdraw my application due to personal reasons.
It's now time to go back to Jobstreet and MyCareerFuture to look for more job openings.
Work hasn't been going well lately.
There is this really difficult customer who has been really challenging to work with, and I have expressed to my boss how uncomfortable I am to be working with this guy because he is just a very unplesant individual.
Let's call this customer Justin.
Justin is a single 60++ year old guy who was referred to us by a previous customer, upon the first meeting back in March, I already knew he was going to be difficult, he had a lot of expectations and some of them were not realistic, when my boss tried to manage those expectation by offering some disclaimer, for example, expecting tiles to be 100% align and the grout line to be perfectly filled, which I will have to say are standards that we will of course try to achieve as much as possible, but because laying of tiles is ultimately still done by human hands, there will be some minor imperfections here and there, Justin was not having any of it and told us his expectations are very high and that we should be aware of it and esentially deliver that standard that he is expecting.
It was a major red flag because of how stubborn he was about it, so I wasn't keen to work with him and I had told my boss how much I didn't like Justin, my boss agreed that he was difficult to talk to and I had assumed we were on the same page and we won't entertain Justin anymore, my plan was to offer him a simple space planning proposal and we would prepare a quotation for him, just as a gesture of goodwill seeing how he had come down to our office to meet us.
Fast forward a few weeks, no news from Justin, I thought he was gone, but for some reason, my boss decided to reach out to Justin and ask him if he had any feedback, and suddenly Justin was back in our lives again. We had a second meeting and it was really not going anywhere, my ideas were presented but he wasn't very keen on it, and we went thorugh that whole "expectation" and how he has very "high standards" chat again, it was exhausting and this meeting just reinforced my disdain towards the idea of working with him as a client.
Weeks go by and my boss decided to reach out to Justin again to check for any updates. Justin replies, but because he was going to be travelling, we didn't have a third meeting but Justin would ask some questions and at that point, I just could not be fucked and left my boss to do the replying. After a while, the chatgroup just went dead, and it stayed dead for weeks, so all of us just assumed Justin is no longer interested and we all just moved on.
Well, Justin came back 2 weeks ago and now my life suddenly feels like shit again.
He was texting in the groupchat asking about a bunch of new things, scruntizinig the last quotation we send over and the way he worded his mesages were very unplesant and extremely entitled, writing certain words in captial letter to emphasis his point, so he would write this like...
Anyways, I express to my boss once again how we should drop Justin and not entertain him because I didn't want to work with him as I felt like the project is just not worth the mental anguish this guy is putting us through , plus I also didn't want to waste Justin's time, I want him to quickly go search for another ID.
But my boss kept replying back and apparently he had a call with Justin last week where the both of them were essentially shouting at one another on the phone, at least that was what my boss told me.
Upon hearing how unpleasant that call had been, one would then think that the toxicity of this client and just the way the call went, it is a pretty clear sign we should drop it before it gets to that stage.
This early design stage is SUPPOSED to be the fun part, it's where the client and the designer / contractor exchange ideas and work together to come up with the final design, the painful part only starts when the renovation begins, but with Justin, we are already experiecing that level of difficulty at such an early stage, the Project Manager is going to be dealing with a much more unpleasant version of Justin and if our one and only Project Manager quits in frustration, the company is essentially screwed because most, if not all the projects that we have on hand right now are single handedly being managed by that one Project Mnager..
So what does my boss decide to do?
Set up a Zoom call with Justin, and for me to be present so we can run through my proposal together.
Fucking Hell.
This meeting happened yesterday and it was probably one of the most unpleasnt design meeting I had to sit through, it was 2.5 hours long of Justin just being extremely condescending, questioning every single advice we were offering him, I was literally shouting over the mic at him at the start because he kept debating my design choices, then when I realize how pointless the whole conversation was, I just switched off mentally and let my boss handle the rest, my boss was ALSO shouting in the mic because of how upsetting the covnersation was going and by the end of the meeting, I was just done.
I looked at my boss when I ended the call and asked him rhetorically...
"This type of customer you still want to take?"
... never have I had a design meeting where we were spending more than half the time debating with the client in such an aggressive manner, like the entire meeting is
And my boss's response.
"I think we are making progress."
what.
the.
actual.
fuck.
...like what the actual fuck, I couldn't believe THAT was the fucking conclusion he came to. We literally sat in silence for like a minute because I just couldn't believe my boss still thinks this project is worth taking, that it is not going to become a complete shit show.
His judgement is completely messed up, why in the FUCK would you choose to work with someone who is going to be a complete fucking nightmare, we are only at the early stages of design discussion and both the boss and the designer attached to this project are already having an argument with the client over a zoom call, and my boss thinks "we are making progress".
For the longest time, I have been planning to find a new job, but this current job has always been so comfortable (despite the shitty pay) that I just never really found the need to actively pursue a new company, but the way my boss is willing to put the team through this abusive collaboration with such a toxic customer has shown me just how fucked up his sense of judgement is and if there is a second Justin that appears in the future, I would rather not be here to deal with that shit anymore, I am not getting paid enough to deal with this shit.
Attemped to bake for the first time in a long while and it was to make Sticky Toffee Pudding after the delicious one I had at PS. Cafe.
Looked for a recipe online and decided to make the one that looked the easiest...
Had my Fitstop session in the morning of Hari Raya Haji, it's a Wednesday class so there was a lot of running invovled, and since it was a holiday, the class was busier than usual and there were a lot more unfamiliar faces.
I really enjoy going for the class, but I always have a mini anxiety attack when we are told to group up on our own, the coaches will do a final check at the end to make sure everyone has a group, but there has been once when the coach didn't make sure and I ended up doing a session that needed a partner alone.
It was a good session, had my sweat out, then had to rush back home because I was going to meet this guy whom I shall refer to as Bee, I went to his new place earlier this month after he prematurely called things off with me last month, but after our last catch up session at his place, I decided to continue keeping in touch.
Got myself a cup of iJooz on the way home, saw this green colour orange inside the machine, not sure if it's unripe or mouldy, but thankfully it wasn't part of my juice.
Left for Potong Pasir at about 10am and headed over to Folkyard for brunch, I found out about this spot on TikTok and thought it would be an interesting place to visit.
They are known for their sarnies and I think they got quite popular online, so there were a lot of diners that day, I thought going for brunch would save us from the lunch crowd, but this place is clearly a brunch spot so I was an idiot for thinking that it wouldn't be as crowded as it was.
I got to the place first and was told that I could either get an outside seat within a few minutes, or join a 15 minute queue and get a seat inside the air conditioned space, I thought about it for a while and opted to take the outside seating.
BIG MISTAKE.
There was no fan outside, so I was given a handheld fan, it was not very useful because the weather was fucking insane, it's not a weather for people to be dining outside because not even 5 minutes after I got seated down, I could already feel sweat trickling down my chest in my shirt, it was so fucking uncomfortable.
I did contemplate asking the staff if I could just rejoin the queue and wait for an aircon seat instead, but the queue had already grown to at least 5 groups of people long, so I just sucked it up and endured the heat.
1st May
Back from my Taipei Trip, travel bug has hit me yet again and I am now already starting to look for another country to visit.
Currently on my list.
1. Guangzhou
2. Japan
3.Bangkok
4. Bali
5. Vietnam
Guangzhou and Japan will probably be a longer 1 week trip type of situation, so I will probably save those 2 countries for next year, Bangkok, Bali and Vietnam will be for a shorter end of the year, before the school holiday start type of trip, just so I can have something to look forward to for the rest of the year.
Heavily leaning towards Bali right now because it is a lot more affordable, but I still have time to plan.
4th May
Left work a little early on a Monday to catch The Devil Wears Prada 2. Mondays and Tuesdays are days when I am usually alone in the office, and with nothing much to actually do that day, I made the decision to just leave work about an hour early.
Context
So there was this guy I had matched with on Hinge back in March, we had gone on 3 dates (2 of which I had wrote about in the March Update post) and on the third date, which was about a month back, he was very proactive and I felt like we had really good vibes with one another.
About 3 days later, he suddenly texted me and suggested we call things off because he felt like I wasn't interested in him enough due to how slow I had been responding to his text messages. It really threw me off guard because I thought it was a bit of a drastic move to make after how well the last date went, but I told him if he wanted to end things, than I will respect his choice, I was disappointed but if this was how he was going to react from me not replying to his messages quickly enough, then I can only imagine how much worst it can get later on.
After calling things off, he did text me again a few days later to thank me for helping out with his new home, but because I was still upset at how everything had transpired, I just gave replies that didn't really invite for longer conversations. (Reason why I did not write about the third date even though it went really well, because it ultimately did not end well)
He continued reacting to my Insta-stories while I was in Taipei and at one point, requested I help him get a particular perfume from a store I had visited, I had slowly gotten over the disappointment, so I did that and then we arranged to meet up at his place once I was back, that meeting took place on 10th May.
I told him I was upset that he had jumped to conclusion because I actually felt the same way about the last date as well, that it actually went really well, he was glad to have cleared the misunderstanding and I could tell from his body language that he was very hopeful we could go back to where we had been before, to that phase of us trying to work out something, but to be honest, at this stage, I am still very much on the fence about whether I want to explore anything further with him because as much as I appreciated his gesture and the amount of preparation he had done for this lunch meet up and the fact that he still kept in touch after he called things off, it still doesn't change the fact that he had prematurely ended something promising at both our expense, something that I had been so hopeful for, before it had even begun thanks to his overthinking, it just doesn't sit well with me.
We did visit go to a few other spots after lunch, he had things he wanted to get things for his place, so I just tagged along, and we ended the day with him dropping me off at Rochor MRT.
We haven't texted each other since that meet up, buta part of me wants to reach out to him and check in.
14th May
Just a photo I took while I was waiting at Novena for my bus to get to the office, had decided to go to Novena to grab coffee before going into work and holy fucking shit, the 5 minute walk from Novena MRT to the bus stop had me drenched in sweat!
It always happens, everytime I decideo take a detour and go to Novena to grab coffee or breakfast before heading into the office, I will always end sweating when I get to this bus stop, my whole body will feel really sticky and wet, the only reason why the lighting in the photo looks so good is because the Sun is being a completely fucking bitch and just glaring right down on us.
To say I have a disdain for the weather during this period would be an understatement, I actually legtimately hate Singapore's weather during this period, it sucks! It's so fucking hot it pisses me off and I will get so upset at my Uniqlo shirts because when I sweat, it shows so promineintly on the fabric, especially on my chest, it's sickening.
That's all for now.