Bitter. Bitter.

I think there's a pretty huge hole in my social circle at this point of time in school.

I'm literally alone in class like 60% of the time surfing the internet, and half the time I don't even know what I'm surfing... it's like playing a Wikipedia game where the objective of the game is to jump from the "Average Joe" page to the "Superstar" page in 3 clicks. My aim is not having to use 3 clicks but rather find those 2 words in a single page, and thus I'm planning to write a Wikipedia page about myself.

So I headed to school on Friday, not really looking forward to it at all, like how your Mum never looks forward to spending the night without me, if she's not going to pay me the full sum you can tell your Mum to go spend the night with your Dad.

But the day got better when I bumped into a Secondary School friend of mine, usually when I bump into a Secondary School friend, the conversation never last more than a few seconds before turning into awkward silences filled with really stupid questions like...

"Where are you going?"

"School? This bus goes to your school"

Oh right, the dude's been taking the bus for almost 2 years and you are questioning whether or not he's taking the right bus.

And followed by another awkward silence, and during the silence I am thinking 2 things, another stupid question and when the hell is he getting off the bus.

It's just a vicious circle of awkwardness. It sucks even more if I see the person again because all the rhetorical questions that could've passed on as normal questions have been used. I never speak to Primary School classmates if I see them, they are dead to me.

But this friend of mine I bumped into was more easy so start a conversation with, probably because we use to insult each other in school... kinda awkward at first but it got really comfortable as time pass because I didn't really have to think of any stupid questions to ask, and I wasn't thinking when he was going to get off the bus.

Got more positive after that, who knew all it took was speaking to a proper friend right before heading to school made the day a lot more bearable. School would really be a lot more bearable if there weren't so many annoying people loitering around. 1 which is pretty obvious... and another type...

"Oh my Gosh, -insert name- , you are damn funny."

First of all, it's annoying enough to have someone constantly laughing at things that aren't necessarily funny... but saying

"Oh my gosh, -insert name-, you are damn funny." to every Tom Dick and Harry ? Why don't you just pass the person a condom and ask for some penetration action directly because that's a lot easier than trying to kiss ass.

Screw you, all the guy did was add the word "f*ck" at the end of every sentence, I actually take time to think of shit to write on Twitter in the past and hardly anyone thought it was funny.

Apparently the word "F*CK" takes precedence over wit.

End of Annoying people rant.

Oh, and I had one classmate of mine who was initially nice enough to warn me of something the lecturer said on Thursday about the critique, but I wasn't in school because I had more important things to do like writing my own Wikipedia page.

She miss-called me once and then SMS me.

Being someone who doesn't get messages everyday, I didn't check my phone till it was pretty late. Ask her what it was about via an SMS, and when I say late I mean like 3 hours after she SMS me, but not late enough to not get a reply.

She did not reply. A hour pass no reply, and she wasn't the type who sleeps early so I was very sure she saw my SMS. It's just piques my curiosity as to exactly what this sort of people actually think when they see the SMS and choose not to reply.

I am actually this sort of people... Me = Guilty.

I do this to people who do it to me in the past,if I SMS you and you never reply... I am not going to be bothered to reply you until you speak to me again. For me, I will carry a small grudge with people who never reply my SMS till they actually SMS back or speak to me in real life again.

So I have a small little grudge with my classmate who was nice enough to attempt to warn me about something, which up to now I have no idea is about what. She was nice but this small grudge will linger until she speaks to me again or till it manifest itself into a ghost and starts meowing like a cat.

No coz Your Life Sucks.

I was earlier going through facebook to see the updates and I realise I had 1 notification.

For someone who doesn't update on Facebook or Twitter anymore, getting a random notification is huge. It's as amazing as me telling people that I did not get liposuction, that I am actually that slim... or that I am not actually anorexic but I just have really powerful acid in my stomach that's in the same chemical family as the Xenomorphs blood.

Being excited about what the notification is, I clicked it and realise it was from someone I wasn't really close to, he had left a note on my wall... turns out it was just a stupid quiz about "Would you want to live as your "friend" for a day".

"Friends" needs to be in quote when we are talking about Facebook. I don't lie to myself everyday telling myself I have 76 friends... when in real life I probably only have like 10 plus. Technically people with 400 are worst because their percentage of friends they only add in Facebook but never speak to in real life are a lot higher than mine. You have 400 friends but you only really speak to 50 of them, I have 76 friends but I speak to 10 of them in real life... I win percentage wise and we will leave it at that.

So back to the topic.

I open the stupid quiz that people are always taking and realize he had actually chose "No" as the answer. I get that my life isn't really exciting, but that's only because you're not in my shoe, if you were in my shoe, your life would be filled with fascinating thoughts and very very wrong pictures will fill your mind almost 24/7.

Click "Yes" dammit. If you had clicked "Yes"... you would've realized how amazingly delicious bacon really is.

I feel really insulted. Not close to the person yet got indirectly dissed. Sometimes it's better to skip the question than to answer No. But I'm grateful to him because he brought my Facebook Notification bar to life for that quick 10 seconds.

K-Fever

Been at home watching quite a few SNSD music video and reality show recently, the show's hilarious, I was literally laughing while watching the show.

To be clear I don't actually laugh not loud because I do not believe in the expression LOL!... that is a fake expression used by people on the internet when they pretend to laugh at your jokes to make you feel better, or when they insult you they throw in that to make it sound like a joke... unless they are like those annoying type that laughs at their own joke even before they finish saying it.

I find it really hard to laugh at someone's joke when they are already laughing at their own joke. Like once in a while I get it, but not all the time, dude, you are not that funny if I'm not laughing, now tell me a really dirty joke or I will bend over.

I've been hit by the K-Pop fever.. which includes a slight fever and a terrible sore throat... that was a very terrible attempt at wordplay.

Thursday, after realizing I have 3 whole days off... I got sick and started getting addicted to panadols and ate a lot of Rocky Road Ice Cream, which probably led to the sore throat. At this point of time my voice has probably hit puberty twice... its extremely coarse now and I can't say more than 2 words without going off key which is bloody embarrassing for an amazing singer like myself.

The fact that I was almost mute made school extremely crappy today, not that I was anymore talkative on a usual day...but no one got to enjoy my normal angelic voice like they always do. When I consulted the lecturer and they told me to do ridiculous stuff for my current project, I couldn't say anything and all I could do was look at them and nod like a clueless foreign exchange student from Korea singing Gee Gee Gee Gee.

Ask me cut the entire Site Plan to show a cross section of the entire area. Crazy bunch of lectures.

"Quite easy one, not a lot of work."

I'm just gonna randomly stick support structures everywhere. Site plan suddenly become a cross section of all the building in that area. The project entitled Room*Zero suddenly required us to redesign a bridge. I think it's a hidden message in that project title.

XOOX

School went pretty well yesterday... my attendance record for the workshop is like that of a delicious sandwich, the bread being the day I was present and the delicious filling being the days I stayed at home and did pretty much nothing.

I was thinking of getting an XOXO for my attendance just so the attendance sheet would have hugs and kisses from me personally through an encrypted message brought about by my presence... something every Russian sleeper agent learns in their special training.

Nothing really interesting going on right now, except for some mini drama happening in my house right now, which if I were to tell someone about what had happened that caused a real life Korean Drama re-enactment in my house, they would probably laugh about it because its over something extremely trivial.

But I'm not going to go into too much detail...

I guess sitting alone at the back in school is not so bad when you actually have something to do... Thursday wasn't so bad because I had my iPod, my roll of wire and a very rusty murder weapon called a Plier.

And for lunch on Thursday I had lasagna... Personally I think I have a problem because the lasagna didn't really tasted good when I ate it, but suddenly now I don't mind eating it again. It's probably because my friends always wants to eat vegetarian food and I'm not even vegan, nor do I ever want to become one. I will become a vegan the day my future pet pig Bacon gets killed in front of me, chopped up and served in between 2 pieces of bread as delicious bacon.

I will go vegan from the guilt of enjoying Bacon's bacon. Suddenly I want a pig because, firstly it's bloody cute... and secondly, it will drive all the Malays away. <- That was OBVIOUSLY a joke... I have tones of Malay friends on Facebook. Friends that add me but never ever speak to me in real life.

In my defense, I do try and interact with them... but after a while I realize I was trying too hard, plus they weren't really interested in chink-ing out. So now I just stare at them from a distance and when they look back I will turn my head away like a petty kid.

I have 3 days off, Friday, Saturday and Sunday which I believe will not be spend fruitfully at all. That is what makes people either want to go and do something big like exploring the world... or go end their life by jumping off the building. I'm the former, with the internet as my travel agent

Digress.

I just found out "Lesbian Licking Pussy" was another search result that led to this blog. What kind of stupid search engine are those porn addicts using. Use Google for pete sake... it will send you to the proper pussy licking action website.

Gee Gee Gee Gee...

I've been really hooked on one Korean Pop Song for a while now, right now it's still on a "Lip-Synch Along" type of like... its on its way to "Urgh~ so sick of the song but now I can lip synch perfectly" type of like... very much like a love hate relationship where even though you are really sick of the song, every once in a while you would go back and take a listen again. Maybe that's just how my music taste functions.

Gee Gee Gee Gee ... Baby Baby Baby... Gee Gee Gee Gee.

It isn't really stuck in my head yet because I remember last night while listening The Script to sleep, I kept trying to "Gee Gee Gee" in my head to try and remember how the tune goes. The song is like a year old I guess and I only started listening to it a week ago.

I was curious, the video was there... I clicked on it.

SNSD/Girls Generation/Lesser names than Miley Cyrus apparently went to the same plastic surgeon and opt for the same type of nose. I guess you get a bulk discount that way because there's A LOT of girls in that group. Buy 7 nose get 1 free... I believe one of the girls did not go for plastic surgery because she doesn't like like your generic Korean Pop Star and that is a good thing.

Good lord there are so many Korean Pop Group now, its very intimidating because I view each individual group as like some kind of Sect where they battle each other when they can't agree to something through dance, song and backstage catfights. Piss one group off enough and they will merge into a collected mass of silicon ball and roll over the entire Korea.

Silicon does some amazing work, I always thought Koreans were ugly people... but I guess the only reason I thought that way was because my Mum always watches Korean drama that revolves around family... all the Mums and Aunties that rely on natural beauty and the daringness to appear on TV in all their crying glory.

Interview

The little SMS that I received yesterday that threaten students with "Disciplinary Action" turned out to be "an interview with School Management".

I have no idea what an "Interview" means nor do I actually want to know because it sounds a little creepy, it sounds like some torture technique where the Management will tie you down to a chair and bind your whole body, after which they will take a drill and slowly drill into individual parts of your joints until you learn your lesson about why skipping a useless Workshop is wrong, and that rather than being able to spend the entire week doing something productive, which in my case is staying at home and doing nothing productive, you are better off making a wire model.

Wow, now whatever the Interview really is wouldn't be as bad after coming up with that scenario in my head. That scenario is only applicable to Hell, and maybe during Hitler's reign, which is also Hell.

I'm a good kid, so even though I'm not attending the lesson like I'm forced to, I will still do up a stupid model... at least I would have an excuse.

"I was at home making my models, it took me 3 whole days." <- It really took me like 4 hours which is quite a long time, as a comparison, spending 4 hours in Aion is like semi-hardcore in my standards. Not so hardcore because every-time I am in Aion, I spend 90% of the time walking around the place looking at the vistas while normal hardcore players (Koreans I assume) are killing monsters over and over and over again until they get their desired weapon, which amazes me because some China girl played WoW for 3 days straight and died, a Korean can probably play like a week straight and still have the energy to cry on cue.

.... if it doesn't work I will prick my fingers a few times and tell them I was suffering because nothing shouts Sympathy like injuries from working too hard. It would be really successful if they feel guilty about the pricks as well.

They should, I pricked myself just so I can get out of trouble, it's all their fault, not mine for wanting to skip a class almost 70% of my classmates aren't interested in.

While I find the whole idea to be interesting, it's still a very redundant workshop. But I guess I will have to force myself to go to school tomorrow to hand in the wire sculpture, which I am pretty sure is way smaller than everyone else's.

Hey, at least I did one Management. I should really start learning to answer politically just in case I get to go for an Interview. Skip twice only and I have to go to Management for Interview, nothing personal to the lecturers but F*ck them and their assumptions that students would enjoy sculpting models with wire.

Workshop = Waste Of Time. Period

Just came back from the dentist to get my cavity fixed.

That's what happen when you have candy on a daily basis... you cause imbalance in the Fairy economy. Life is not fun when one's a bankrupt, what the hell are the tooth fairies suppose to do with so many teeth anyway... that's one business proposal that they did not go through very thoroughly.

"So we collect the teeth, and then we give the kids cash in return."

Kids just buy anything their parents say.... like how my Mum use to tell me..

"Don't lie down when you are praying... God will think you are sleeping."

... that doesn't really make sense because God is omnipotent , he knows everything about everyone... that's why he's God.

This dentist is a nice guy, but he's so full of surprises, previously he told me I only had 2 teeth that was showing signs of decay, and today he suddenly told me I had 3... or maybe there were 3 all along and I just decided to lie to myself and constantly told myself there were only 2.

But he did all the digging and the drilling and the hitting of the sensitive parts... and have his assistant shove some sucker thing down my mouth to suck rubble because the water sucking contraption can just be left by itself on the side of my mouth on it's own while it keeps sucking my gums. I am assuming the assistant sucker thing sucks all the excessive filling that falls from my mouth because my cavity is so huge making excess wouldn't hurt... unless the dentist accidentally drops the entire tray of filling into my mouth and the whole thing hardens and blocks my airways.

One thing I always worry about is when the doctor or dentist tell me...

"You will feel a slight pressure" or "This will just sting a little"

And then they take the drill, set it on max speed and start drilling on an open nerve in your teeth.

It will sting a little because you won't be able to feel anything after your nerve's been raptured

Well...

I may have plans to skip school tomorrow and for the whole week... I just have no idea how to tell my Mum I am going to skip school the entire week because my friends are in Tokyo for their study trip and me going to school will equate to me being alone for the entire week. Plus I don't see any point in going to school if it's going to be a workshop galore.

I don't want to learn "The Ways to a Healthy Teenage Pregnancy" or "Are You Really Over Your Drug Addiction?".

Plus even if I can really relate to the workshop..."Truly Paranoid Individual" I will probably forget it within a week. My Mum got me into a $2000 workshop once and within like 2 to 3 weeks I forgot everything about it... which I guess it worth the money because that's 1 to 2 weeks of remembering the workshop teachings longer than the other workshop I've been to... well the workshop was teaching about the proper techniques of memorizing things and studying so I guess it did work.