I have finally decided to call things off with Drew after he blocked me from seeing his stories again over the weekend while he is currently on what I am assuming is a Bali trip with a date... maybe?
I had already decided in my mind that we were never going to work out after our Korea trip together, so I hadn't really initiated any more dates with him since we came back, and neither did he. The last time we texted was on Tuesday, I still make it a point to reply to his messages within the day, Drew on the other hand has not replied back to me since then, so it is safe to assume that interest on both side have started to dwindled since then, he has been a huge fucking disappointment during and after the trip.
This whole blocking and unblocking thing is just....weird, so when I noticed that last night as I was just scrolling through his profile, that he had done it yet again, it was honestly a bit triggering because I don't like how he feels the need to have to constantly hide things from me, and how comfortable he has gotten with it, this is the third or fourth time that has has blocked me.
He has this habit of lying, he shared me with how he lied to his Mum about leaving Korea on the same day as her when in reality, he had taken a bus ride back to Seoul right after his Mum checked-in to the departure hall because he was gonna stay a week longer (that I had joined him but then this fucker ditched me for half the trip), he also lied to his bosses about how his flight got delayed so he couldn't come into work the next day, even though he was the one who had booked the red eye on purpose to maximize his time in Korea (but didn't bother to try and maximize his time with me)
The flag just kept getting redder and redder the longer I know him.
Back then, I thought it was funny and would laugh with him, but that was because he was not lying to me, if he could lie so easily to his Mum and his Bosses, and was so proud of it, of course he is also capable of doing that to me, and he did!
He may not have outrightly lied to me with this recent happenings, but blocking me from seeing his stories to shape a specific narrative in my mind about what he was doing, withholding certain information, and using that lack of information to lead me to assumptions that weren't true. That is lying with extra steps of manipulation, and it is actually insane when I think about it. All the stories he told me about his exes and how they were the problem, I now honestly find it hard to believe that he is actually completely innocent in all of them.
I kept the text that I send to him very civil, told him I have felt us getting more and more distant ever since the trip, and that what we had has probably come to a natural end, I wished him the best yada yada. I had originally wanted to wish him a fun trip in Bali, just to throw him off a little as a final jab, but decided I didn't want to be so mean spirited about it because I just want to end whatever we have amicably.
With this, I think it is also time for me to just take a break from online dating, it has been extremely exhausting emotionally to be meeting so many people with the intention to find a partner, but then have none of them work out in the end. The depression that came with it was the last thing I was expecting, but nonetheless, it was still nice to have finally experienced how it is like to be dating, even though I haven't really found someone that I genuinely developed actual, healthy feelings for yet.
Hopefully 2026 will be much better and I can actually find a partner organically offline and not online~!
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